First time I visited school was in 2012 and as every child I also cried that day then slowly slowly I got comfortable I made some new friends. I used to sleep a lot which always made me late for my school. I started noticing that other children are behaving not well with me. most of the time they used to say - "leave him, he's a kid". Due to rejection from my peer, I started being clingy as I always felt very feared out of being alone.

In my second class, I used to fight my peers because of ill treatment and it used to always go like this only. I had many bad memories also about this but I am not comfortable sharing those. we all were very young and all always had many conflicts with each other. teacher never gave attention to me, due to which my doubts were never cleared.

In my fourth class, I started getting bullied by my peers. my friend always used to defend me but when he was not there I used to get bullied both mentally and physically over which teachers never took any serious actions or considering talking to their parents. imagine 8-9 years old kids abusing each other in a vulnerable way.

I used to get bullied all over till 8th class but one thing was very clear that sex education is must. 6th class kids introducing me to porn which I never searched until my curiosity awaken one night and ended up making my life miserable.

Teachers used to cover all syllabus very fast and environment was also not good either. I was all dumb till my 10th until I got to meet one neighbour who study in college and he used to teach me everything including concepts from starting. I am very thankful to him for what I am today, otherwise I wouldn't be able pass my 10th that time. 10th class is very basic class with very basic concepts but as my concepts were not clear since 9 years I struggled a lot to prepare for my exams. Thanks to him I started writing diary which I am sharing in this website. 

9th and 10th were online because of covid still thankfully I didn't compromised my 10th studies. I will share some interesting diary notes in future when covid was there.

My 11th and 12th went really calm and no one ever disturbed me as I was always alone. I was pretty famous in my school with name "CPU" because I was a topper in Computer subject from my 6th to 12th. My teachers were pretty shocked especially Accounts sir because all over 11th topper of Accounts saying he is not interested in accounts at all. This school also had many meme pages of their students and obviously it was unofficial. I also got posted in that account as I said I was "famous" in a negative way. I never mind anyone words because I never saw them as same level as I am for their actions. I never minded negative comments passed over me because holding and thinking about them will only gain pain. My Class Teacher once said "Ignorance is a powerful weapon" and she was right. Ignorance actually avoided wasting my energy over students who are trying to be cool in front of others.

My school life was filled with many mental traumas which later costed me a lot of trouble but thanks to those trouble only I am what I am. I love myself for what I am.